WHADDUP PEEPS.
I've been gone for a while, and no, no pictures on this post for this time. (I LIED ITS BORING WITHOUT IT) I wanted to let out some feelings and thoughts that's been going through my head.
I've had a dizzying past few weeks and I feel as though I'm gonna have more of the same till next month. I've discovered so much about myself these days that it bothers me how much I've progressed throughout the years.
I went from Normal Kid to EMO kid then to the lonely kid to 'i'm totally okay' kid then 'wow I'm an adult' kid and today I'm the 'what the fuck am I doing with my life' kid.
There's a lot of things in my life that I would change if I could but I can't. Lots of things I wished I would've done, and stuff I wished I didn't do.
BUT THAT DOESNT CHANGE THE FACT THAT HELLO IM GETTING OLDER AND IM STILL CLOSE TO NOWHERE.
I like my life. I have a great family. A good set of friends. A best friend who's always there for me. BUT I LIKE MY LIFE I DON't LOVE IT AS MUCH AS OTHER PEOPLE DO WITH THEIRS.
It's through my own fault really, but then again I make the choices and I know it's my responsibility. But sometimes stuff doesn't go your way.
I've been applying to different jobs lately. None of which have had a good response. My endgame is still to work overseas but right now it's not going great and that's okay. Maybe it's just not for me right now.
Also, It's October and I really wanna visit the ASYLUM in Quezon but I don't know who wants to go with me. if you wanna go with me, message me on messenger. MOVING ON.
I hung out with Jam the other day and we talked a lot. We got dinner, ATE TONS OF CAKES and had a blast. But a lot of things that we talked about cleared my view on things. It put things into perspective, you might say.
I've been feeling so weird lately. Weird in a very confusing, in denial way. AND I STILL AM. I don't know what to do about it, but I know I'm not giving up anytime soon. Paranoid? yes, but not giving up.
You probably don't get what I'm talking about. So here's the down-low. You know how when you catch feelings and it literally catches you off guard. Well whaddup, that's me. It took me quite a while to realize it too... so what I'm trying to say is...
IM FUCKING DENSE.
so yeah that's the past few weeks I've been having. and now I've come to see the realization that I'm too stupid to function.
that's where I'm gonna end this.
hope you liked this random, but well put an update.
adios
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